I've got kind of a situation here that I don't have the slightest clue how to handle. Me and my best friend in the entire world dated. We were great together, physically, emotionally, everything. Now everything is a mess.
My world feels like it is over, because not only did we break up as boyfriend and girlfriend, but we broke up as friends. I could have handled the relationship break up. I wasn't handling it very well, but I would have been able to figure myself out.
The whole thing changed when we broke up, and not a month goes by and he's already dating someone new. This is the guy who I knew better than anyone in the world. We were each other's best friend, and sometimes I think he knew me better than I knew me. Sometimes I think I knew him...or thought I knew him...better than he knew himself. We were very close. Not in the physical way that most people think of, when they think about physical relationships. But we were the best, and I mean the very best of friends.
Now we're far away from each other, physically and emotionally. He apparently wants nothing to do with me. I just don't know how to handle it. I got upset at him first, for already being in a relationship, right after kissing me goodbye before I left for college. You can say that I'm stupid, for believing in him. You would be right. What hurts me the most, is not even the fact that he is dating someone else already, is the fact that all I want right now, is for things to be right between us. I would give him a hundred chances if only he would take them.
I am the one who feels betrayed in this...however I would give anything to be friends with him again. He was my support when my senior year went to hell. He was my comfort when all I got was yelled at. He was my friend for when I was scared. He was my cuddler, when I just wanted that physical closeness. He was the first boy I ever kissed, and the only boy I have ever kissed. I don't know what to do without my best friend.
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